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This site really used to mean the world to me. I first started getting active in anime forums like this in the first covid lockdown in 2020. At that time, I was not in a good place mentally, I had lost contact with a lot of my friends and developed a fear of other people. I would only go outside at nighttime in order to avoid other people and I fell into a depression. At that time anime was my only safe place and I for some time I lost almost complete contact with the outside world. Every day, I would watch as much anime as I could sometimes entire 24 episode shows in a day. Back then I didn’t actually care about what I was watching, I just wanted to watch as much as I could to fit into this anime fandom and I didn’t want to think, don’t think about what I am watching and don’t think about my real-life problems. That was until I watched Evangelion. I had already watched the show prior when I wasn’t as much into anime and though I enjoyed it, it was only now at this time that I was truly able to understand its meaning. Its final message of seeking out real human connections and not running away from them in fear of getting hurt really resonated with me and it changed me for the better.

I now started to appreciate anime on another level not only as a means of consummation (is that even a word?) but as art that can impact another person's life and change it. I also started to get a lot more interested in the craftsmanship and the culture behind it. And most important of all I also started to seek out deeper real human connections and was able to meet new people and establish deep bonds with them. To this day I hold Evangelion and also Kare Kano very close to my heart.

Nowadays I don’t consume that much anime anymore as I am quite busy with real life. I also try to express myself through art and maybe one day I will be able to create art that changes another person's life like this medium changed mine.

But I will never forget this medium and this site and what it did for me. Never.


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1: I don't like it
2: I think its fine
3-10: I like it

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